Hello ladies!
I have missed you all so very much. The hectic life of a college student is making me feel like a sailor without her sea legs. There hasn't been a whole lot of solid ground to cling to since moving to this new town a little over a month ago.
A few weeks ago, I had a particularly rough week. You know those weeks that seem to be full of bad news and punches to the gut? Yeah, it was one of those.. I felt as though the ground had broken up into little tiny pieces and while my feet were standing on all those pieces, I was sliding around looking for something to hold on to.
One night, I felt super alone. I was about to break down and cry. I don't cry very often, but this night I was on the verge of a hurricane of tears. I just felt lost. I felt conflicted, alone and even a little scared. I kept thinking to myself, "What was I thinking coming to school? I'm not ready for this. I don't know anyone, nobody wants to be my friend and I just don't think this is worth my time." But worst of all was this thought: "I don't want to be here anymore." That thought bounced around in my head for days and I couldn't shake this feeling of insufficiency. I wasn't capable of this, I wasn't able to understand people, I wasn't able to talk to people, I couldn't do any good...
I can't speak for the guys here, but us ladies get really wrapped up in our problems. When we're upset, it feels to us like the entire world is crashing down around us and our shoulders aren't sufficient enough to hold it all.
The truth is: we're not. We weren't designed to carry all of our burdens alone (and neither were men!). We were designed to need each other, and more importantly we were designed to need God.
"Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their toil. For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up!" (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10)
"Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ." (Galatians 6:2)
Jesus said, "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:30)
"I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, he who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore." (Psalm 121)
It is hard getting to that rock bottom point, feeling like all you can see around you is insurmountable trials and mountains too high to see over. But it is not until we get to that point that we can learn just how desperately we need God. I need God every single day. Not just on Sundays or Wednesdays or bad days. I need Him now and I will need Him for the rest of my life. I pray today that you all come to that realization as well. I love you dearest sisters. Depend on each other and depend on God a little bit more today than you did yesterday.
God bless,
Kat
"The Lord is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him." Psalm 28:7
**All verses in this post come from the English Standard Version (ESV)**
