Hello my lovelies!
I'll be honest. I have tried to start (or thought about starting) at least four different blog posts. I started writing one for last week and never got to finishing what I'd started. I have been so busy. And the issue is that I have gotten to the point where I'm so busy I don't feel like I'm getting anything done; like I'm being productive. I have letters to write, videos to throw together because I said I'd do them, books to read, items to sew, blog posts to write, shopping to do, work to do, chores around the house...... Do I really need to say more?
When I get to feeling like I have one thing under wraps, four other things pop up, wave their hands and say, "Yoo hoo, you forgot something!" All I want is to live with purpose. So why do I feel like I'm on a treadmill?
Sincerely, this is usually where I'd go into the answer and some uplifting message about "If you fix ____ everything will work out!"but right now, I'm caught up in it. For those of you who've spent a decent amount of time at the beach you probably know the feeling. Getting knocked off your feet by the ocean current is scary. Once in it, there is quite literally nothing you can do but wait the wave out. But in the middle of that moment, your body panics and starts to flail around desperately seeking to save itself and put itself upright. The danger with that is you can lose sight of which way is up and end up drowning.
With everything that I am, I want to keep working. To keep flailing around hoping that I can catch a grip on something to help steady me. But the issue is I'm almost certain I'll catch a grip on the wrong thing. I feel like the "easy" answer is to wait it out, but in practice I don't know that I can afford to just sit and wait. More often than not, nothing ever happens for a passive person; they're too afraid to be bold so they sit and twiddle their thumbs until something happens. I can't live that way. But being proactive has put me in a situation where I feel like I can't manage what's on my plate.
I am in need of guidance and prayer. To whoever is reading my words, I'd be greatly appreciative of advice. I love you sisters, so much more than you know!
God bless,
Kat
“If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” C.S. Lewis
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